Inspiration Strikes

…at inappropriate times.

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WIP of Lady with Birds. 

Woke up in a daze this morning around 6 o’clock and had such a vivid image in my head that I had to draw before going back to sleep. Needless to say, the going back to sleep never occurred, but at least I have another illustration to show for it.

Here is the finished product;

ART _01Have you ever had inspiration strike you at inappropriate times? Let me know what you think.

Thanks again!

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Redundancy and Muay Thai.

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A couple of fighters from a Muay Thai fight show

Earlier on this week, I had an impromptu meeting with my boss who asked for a quick 5 minute chat.

As a freelancer in a 3D company this can only mean one or two things: a contract or being let go. Unfortunately it was the latter.

I couldn’t say I was surprised, I had noticed how quiet the studio had gotten, the panicked look in my superiors eyes as the weeks ticked by with no more jobs should have tipped me off.

The only thing that was going through my mind was: why me?

When we lose our jobs, its almost like losing a person. A part of your identity. I had gotten used to the daily grind in our studio, letting it seep over into other aspects of my life and help mould who I am.

Because of this I think its fair to say I experienced the 10 stages of grief; shock, denial, sadness, anger, sickness, panic, guilt, loneliness and finally settled on healing and acceptance.

I don’t think it was a good week for emotional outbursts or for my poor boyfriend who tried his hardest to help me see the bright side; less work, less stress, more freedom to pursue art etc. I know its not too bad because I  have a secondary job and had some money saved up “just in case”, but that doesn’t stop you from questioning yourself and wondering where you went wrong.

No matter how many kind words people say, or how they relate to your situation, no-one can help unless you accept you need to start helping yourself.

The one thing I found did help was going to the gym, a lot.

Since the start of January, (New Years resolution, cliche I know…) both my partner and I have been going to Muay Thai.

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Boxfit Glasgow: Muay Thai Gym.

I used to go a few years ago, until life got in the way. I always remembered thinking how motivated and uplifted I felt whenever I went, whether I was making progress or helping out some of the other trainers.

This is what I’ve latched on to since losing my job. Being a part of this team has greatly helped, and punching and kicking a bag to the point of exhaustion is fantastic for getting your frustration out!

So thats what I’m going to keep doing. More training, getting fitter and focus more on myself and things I love rather than how a job can make me feel.

Maybe I’ll work in 3D again in the future, who knows. But right now, life is not as bad as I thought.

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Twas the night after Christmas…

Merry christmas and a Happy Holidays to everyone out there! I hope you all had a wonderful time.

I know technically its the day after the night after Christmas, but I think most people can relate when I say the hangover was still too vivid for me yesterday to write this post. I’m praying it doesn’t rear its ugly head today for round two.

So, although it is belated, the sentiment it still the same. Had such a wonderful time with all my family and respective adoptive family. Even though many of you aren’t blood, I never felt as truly blessed to have such a large amount of people who loved me and each other.

We have a bit of an untraditional Christmas where we spend Christmas day with our SO’s, Boxing Day at my Grannies, and the 29th with my Mum and husband. That just means I sneakily have another Christmas day to go.

In the meantime, let me share some spoils from my haul so far.

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Okay, technically the record player is a gift from Santa to my partner, but its pretty awesome to have around the house…

The rest all focus around photography and foxes, and were mostly from one of the four Secret Santas’ I signed up to participate in this year.

Secret Santa is great. You end up with fantastic, well thought-out gifts, you would never even think of getting yourself. And you get to share the magic by using your detective prowess and buying an perfect present for someone else.

The gifts that aren’t shown here but are probably two of my favs, are my CBT and my 2DS.

My CBT is my bike test which means I’m one step away from menacing people on the streets with my two-wheeled hog. Something I’ll probably write about here, either about having broken legs or having the best adventures of my life.

My 2DS was a surprise gift from my big brother. We don’t see each other often, but growing up always played the Pokemon games together. This was the first time in a few years I haven’t been following the series, but he decided to remedy this and get me Pokemon Alpha Sapphire. I can tell you a lot of hours will be lost to this guilty pleasure.

Probably the cheesiest and best present I received was the chance to spend so much free time with everyone just relaxing and having fun. When people wish for Christmas everyday, I don’t believe its necessarily the gifts or amazing food they’re enjoying (though don’t get me wrong, it does help!). I think its more the chance that everyone sets aside their busy lives and work schedules, and actually takes time to appreciate the people around them. I think this is something I’d like to work on all year round.

Once again, I really hope everyone had an amazing day, and I wish all of you a Happy New Year!

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